What can we do? A follow up to the Mumbai terror attacks

A few weeks before the Mumbai terror attacks took place, I had seen a movie, 'A Wednesday'. Actually I have seen the movie three times by now. For those of you who have not seen the movie or even heard of it, the protagonist is a common man who takes things into his own hands in order to prove to the terrorists that 'enough is enough'. The protagonist who had lost friends in Mumbai train bombings, is saddened by the in activeness of the police, and the political system. In an attempt to bring them to senses, he threatens to blow up bombs at various locations in Mumbai. Only he had not planted any bombs. His only demand was the release of four terrorists, who he intended to kill. In the end he is able to have all the four terrorist killed and even get away after his act.
Sometimes I wonder, "If things really go bad, could I see myself in the shoes of the protagonist?"
I do not know if I have the strength to do what he had done in the movie. I would say to myself, "It is just a movie. It CANNOT be true." And then again, I feel (or rather should I say fear), " can someone be pushed to that level to do such a thing". I do not know. But I know one thing for sure, what happened in Mumbai on the 26Th of November 2008, was the greatest terror strike we have ever faced and hopefully it has awakened the people.
Sine the terror strike took place, there have been blame games going on. One intelligence agency blaming the other. One political party throwing dirt over the other. There have been scape goats in this. People who had to take a fall for things that were not foreseen. I am not defending any politician or any agency. I am not defending any party or supporting anyone. My only support and sympathies lie with the people of Mumbai. My only expectation is that we as citizens of this country are able to do something(I do not know what, but I soon will). My only hope is that next time onwards the security agencies are able to defend this nation from terrorists.
I had read in one of the major newspapers, that in the USA, all the intelligence agencies report to one organization(I do not remember which one). The article also said, that this system leads to a lot of chaos. But this also ensures proper channelization of information. There is no inter agency conflict. And if there is any, it is resolved by the one department. The same article also read, that the simple fact that the USA has not been hit by any terrorists after September 11, is proof in itself that a system like that can work, where all the intelligence agencies can converge information to a single department.
A lot of newspaper articles appearing after the Mumbai attacks blamed our politicians for acting sloppy, or not carrying out themselves properly. People were saying that , the arrival of the politicians only burdened the local police. The arrival of the politicians required the police to divert manpower to the security of the politicians. I say that by appearing in public, at the site of the attacks, the politicians were probably trying to show solidarity to the people. In the USA, if a terror attacks takes place, the president is moved to a safe bunker, probably below the white house. I am sure that even Manmohan Singh's security would be strong, but he chose not to hide. Again, I am not supporting any political figure(I actually hate majority of the politicians) , I just want to thank everyone who tried to help(at least tried!! I have not even lit a candle yet in order to pay homage to the terror victims).
In one of the articles in the newspaper, I read that New Delhi was among the cities which showed the least emotional reaction to the tragedy. I hope we as Delhiites are able to respond better.

God......am i a theist now?

A particular thing that has always been a topic of debate or conflict within me is about being an atheist or a theist. I always used to hate god. Used to claim that he does not exist cause if he did, there would not be so much injustice in this world. But for a year now, i feel that god does exist. Though y opinion about the injustice in the world has not changed. I still feel that there is a lot of injustice. But now I feel that may be god has his way. May be he has something in store for me and everyone else. May be he has some elaborate plan and he does everything according to that plan. What ever happens, happens according to that plan. I don't know if god exists, but I would like to believe he does. I was an atheist. Now i am not. I am a theist now. But i don't follow any specific religion. I was born in a Hindu family. I go to temples, I sometimes go to a church too. But for me , god doesn't have a form. I have not given up non vegetarian food items. I still have the same old habits. the only difference is, I don't curse god every time. I say," God, what do you have in mind? If you have given me some trouble today, please help me out tomorrow." I always have a hope. Earlier I used to just get angry with the chain of events. now I do get disappointed but i don't lose hope. I still complain to god. But I don't curse him. I used to earlier. I am not a god fearing man. I am just a god believing man. I used to be a god hating man earlier. I do not think I have any regrets, I just think that if god is watching, he would make everything alright in the end.
I do get disappointed with thing that I don't like or with the outcomes of various other things whee I had my hopes set high, but I try to convince myself that in the everything is gonna be alright. I would love to believe it, but at time I wonder again,"does god actually exist or am I just trying to console myself with some stupid notion?
Right now, I am a bit upset. A lot has happened in the last few days to disappoint me. But I have not yet started cursing god. I hope things don't get worse. Had all this been happening a year back, I would have probably cursed god, blamed the whole world for something. Hated myself and maybe gone into solitude for sometime. I am no doing that and I hope I don't end up doing it either.